!foOlREAVlE 2013/11/03 (Sun) 23:34
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[✘] She would sit at the bar.
To the bar, and that stranger so droll.
The drinker faces on the edge of her sight became burning as she passed, embraced in her coat; Benben kept her face forward. For, why she did not know, she felt a stab of shame suddenly at spurning the townsmen’s good offer. They were staring, she was sure they were – where does the lutanist go? We see her even now, yet she does not see us. And had she not sung for them minutes before? Even Tsukumo Benben knew of one lutanist who had danced atop their table at one point this night; yet who that was, and whence she knew this – she did not wish to recall. Her shoulder itched. It was one thing to know a thing; another still to know someone else did.
But she weathered. And here, climbed on a bar stool fully half her height, did the lutanist at last forget these shameful stares. A moment and she calmed; across her lap did Tsukumo Benben rest her lute, and on the bar her hands. The ‘keep eyed her from his chewing (how did the snack survive this long?), but she adjourned him with a shake. The woman beside her, again at her drink, did not notice her joining – or if she did, she failed to show; with her cup tipped, and her head capped, again she sailed on the sea of her own thoughts. Benben leaned closer.
“What is that?”
At last – the stranger took heed; and presently she shuffled round to meet the curious lutanist.
They did not come the friendliest, but when they did, she had beautiful red eyes, the colour of aged wine.
And Benben’s they met. The lutanist tensed.
“What is what?” asked the stranger. But when she found the point of the question, she only shrugged, “Nothing special,” and on went on her own musings.
And at this cruel disregard Benben scowled; yet undaunted called to the barkeep, from whom she ordered, “What the lady here is having.” The lady here said nothing. Still, the barkeep gave a nod. Down to work he came.
As she waited her drink to become, her eyes wandered toward the old barman’s hands – wrinkled hands, and stained – but moving now with all the swift of her own at the lute. Any second Tsukumo Benben expected the glass to chime, the spoon to sing out – but what music there was to be had remained firmly in her mind. Tsukumo Benben willed it away, and last spices made it into her glass, now before her on the ‘top. She paid for it from tonight’s reapings. Then tried the drink.
It was good. She tasted honey and cloves, a touch of cinnamon, and over all the malty relish of ale. She drank deeper, let it wash down her tongue and throat, savouring. It was sweet and rich. Thick and warm. Filling. It was good.
Tsukumo Benben, at least one of her hungers now satisfied, determined to feed another. Who was her neighbour – or why she had so wilfully ignored her – the lutanist could but guess; but it was all she had to do, to guess, to know she wouldn’t suffer it to stand. Tsukumo Benben rose to the bait.
“Good drink,” she opined.
Her neighbour frowned on her sidelong. “Huh?”
“Good drink,” Benben replied, tipping the glass. “They warned me of these special mixtures, that they did. But this is good – despite what they say.” When the woman stared on, Benben continued. “Few distractions in this winter-time, I heard. Yet these folk seem content sitting and drinking. Talking, too. Well, but methinks this is what they do, townsmen. Weirder when they are alone, wrapped in the cocoon of their own thoughts – rather than in company. Makes me wonder.”
The woman’s eyes narrowed into crescents. “My business is my own,” she said. Her breath bristled the silver fuzz of her collar. “But you’ve yet to say what is yours.”
Tsukumo Benben reproached herself for being so forthright. Why was I? she asked herself. But there was no answer.
She smoothed the strings of the lute on her lap, the motion working muted ripples of sound upward her arm. Bolstering her nerve, she plucked the first three notes of her song from the instrument’s belly. Then again. It did not do at all, but Benben appreciated the feeling of familiarity all the same. All of this was new to her; walking and breathing alone had been new experiences, let alone speaking. She had known no language but music before recent weeks; allied to that, the abrasive woman did not help at all. Benben was stumped.
“What is your business, girl?” her neighbour demanded.
“Nothing,” replied Benben, quick – too quick – for her preference. “Nothing, only... I am new here. Yes, new,” she clutched the thread, sensing in it a hope, “that is why I was wondering. I am a lutanist, and fairly fresh. This is my first time in this taproom – in this village as well; I am unfamiliar with the customs here. Perhaps it is normal to—” She caught the woman’s glare and was silenced. “But I am rude.” She bowed her head. “I apologise. Music seems the only language wherein I don’t founder. Did... Did you hear me playing perhaps?”
“I come here to think, lutanist – not to listen.”
Benben’s heart sank. “There are many things to hear in such a taproom...”
A contumelious smirk warped the woman’s lips. “From these louts?” She chuckled, then wet her throat from her drink. “Please, lutanist, you make me laugh. You must be new indeed to believe any worth ever comes from these mouths. Many things, yes, maybe – none of them smelling any better.”
The lutanist, feeling she had broached at least a kind of compromise, forced a smile. “I meant more my music...”
“Maybe, maybe,” granted her neighbour. “But, like I said, I tend to come here with my ears laid—er, closed, if you follow. My thoughts are company enough; I don’t need no bush-not-man creature reeks of dungheap roaring over my shoulder to enjoy my drink. And won’t you say? You don’t look to have any hovering about you, either. Though by no merit of their disinterest, of that I have no doubt.”
Tsukumo Benben, blushing, ripped a discordant note from her lute. “Er, yes.”
To which the woman had another laugh.
As she drew once more from her glass, Benben mustered her courage.
“I never caught your name,” she told the woman.
“You never did,” she agreed.
The lutanist screwed up her lips. “Well, what is it?”
The corners of her neighbour’s lips curved up shrewdly. “You don’t need my name, lutanist,” she said, amused. “Yes, I see now you have little needs – least of all my name. Nor indeed this drink, nor even this roast you no doubt smell the guests gorging themselves on upstairs. You do smell it, don’t you? Though I doubt sincerely anyone here does – no, not this far away. Well, lutanist?”
Alarm bells broke out in Benben’s head, but she gave them no outward sign. All she did was incline her head, slowly.
She could smell roast – keenly, as though it were right before her. Couldn’t everyone? And what of her plump neighbour?
The neighbour smiled, as though she were being silently complimented. “Yes, I knew you could. At any rate this goes to show how wrong of a foot we have gotten off of... Maybe I should apologise for earlier – maybe, if only we needed such things as apologies. No, I think we have got no use for those little courtesies – do we? We’re above that, you and I. So, let’s get to the thrust of things – why don’t we?”
“What—What do you mean?” choked out Benben.
“You are here because you seek something, lutanist. Something, I dare say, not usually gotten in such a place as the likes of this. These humans,” she gestured around the room, “may waste fully a third of their existence on drink and folly, and they may seek that. Food, drink, company. But you, lutanist – you have no such cares. Or have you?”
Tsukumo Benben swallowed. “Then you know who I am.”
“I do not know who you are, lutanist. I merely know what, now.”
The woman, smiling, leaned back, resting against the bar. Tsukumo Benben was tense as the carmine eyes walked up and down lengthwise her height. She closed her legs under her dress.
At length, the woman nodded her head – first to herself, then to the world as a whole, and then, finally, to Benben.
“Should have seen it sooner, really, but yes. Yes, you are. As fresh as you have said, lutanist.”
“My name is Benben,” said Benben, overcome with anxiety. And excitement. But mostly anxiety.
The woman palmed it away as though it were a matterless fly. Unaccountably, Benben was put in a mind of punching things. “You are worried for names? Your priorities are flawed, lutanist. Truth be told, you were lucky to chance on me, of everyone. Here. Tonight.”
“How so?”
“There are those who’d have dealt differently with a lutanist, had they sensed what she was, truly, and you... you have the all the hallmarks, you lutanist. Of that other thing, that is. At a closer glance, you’re all but naked.”
Tsukumo Benben’s expression curdled. “Please do not tease me.”
Her neighbour appeared confused for a short space of time; but, presently, she went on. “Anyhow... This is no sin, being new. No, you wouldn’t be the first to be; nor, I suspect, the last.” She produced a sigh. “Well, it is well that you have found me: here, and tonight to boot – however you managed to do it. Only wait my master to claim it was Her radiance had rubbed off on me,” she sneered. “Still, better, I guess, than having you stray with one of these barroom goats, doing gods-alone-know-what. Too many accidents come to pass that way. Too many in my humble opinion.”
“You still have not explained,” said the lutanist.
“And haven’t you?” returned the woman.
Tsukumo Benben knew not what to make of this answer. Only she watched, feeling oddly it had been devised to confound her more still, how the short woman drained the remainder of her drink.
At least in the abstract; Tsukumo Benben knew whatever had guided her heart had brought her before this woman, in her round winter-cap and stocky cloak to the calf. Whatever had led her – whatever it was she sought – she had sensed a kernel of the thing beyond the façade of her pudgy face, flushed from the drink, thick clothing, or both. Tsukumo Benben looked past her tall headwear where, at the far end of the room, a young couple sat engrossed in quiet conversation over a candle-lit table. She could not say – not with certainty – whether they had been even so when she had sung for them. Why she thought this now, of all times, eluded her as well – but a germ of anger began to coil in her gut at the idea. She looked and watched it grow.
“I do not know what I seek,” she said suddenly.
Her new acquaintance grinned, and immediately Tsukumo Benben regretted her outburst. “No,” agreed the woman. “Few newcomers do.”
The lutanist squeezed her fists. “How do I find it? Where?”
“Ah, now herein is a tale. Oh, excuse me.”
Benben boiled as her neighbour shuffled sideways and denied the returning barkeep’s inquiry. Her ears, out of nowhere, felt as hot as coals.
“Not tonight anyhow. There is one who will help you,” she heard after a moment. “There’s a temple not far outside this village. Go there – enquire for master Byakuren. She will have your answers. Whether they will be free, well... That remains to be seen.”
“Who is this Byakuren?” asked the lutanist.
The woman considered the question at a length. “To you?” she theorised, “nothing for the moment. In time, she may be otherwise. Who knows? To me, I serve her. Though I beg you, don’t tell her of our meeting here. There’s no need to muddy her waters with my entirely private matters. Do you take my meaning?”
Tsukumo Benben did not reply. “You are her server?” she asked instead.
“After a fashion, yes.” Her neighbour’s lips quirked as she registered the snubbing of her status. “At least, so I am ordained. What are you thinking, lutanist?”
Tsukumo Benben didn’t answer, rising from her chair. Her lute stung in her grip.
[ ] “Then take me to this Byakuren. Tall price or no, I will see her.”
[ ] “Why trouble your liege? You seem knowledgeable. You help me.”
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And you still haven’t posted any fuckin’ Benben.