no pic cos im going to bed Tenshi Tenchi Tenji 2010/03/05 (Fri) 15:08 No. 1369 [X] Spare them the false lies and tell the truth.
"WHAT?!"
Ok, ok, so maybe that wasn't really the best opening, just coming right out and saying you were in love with Youmu.
Probably hysterically awful, if you had to say so.
"R-R-Reisen, I never...you were..."
"Wow, Rei, I knew you were close to Youmu, but going that far..."
Argh! I feel embarrassed, humiliated! Dejected even!! This was a horrible, terrible idea!!!
"Ahh! P-Please, forget what I said, it was stupid, I-I-I shouldn't have said something like that!" Argh! Curse your inability to lie to your closest friends! Maybe you could get away with it if you told them it was a joke or something but your panicky state has left you unable to do such a thing!
"Woah, woah, Rei, calm down, I'm not gonna start hating on you or anything because of that." As noble as that is, you're afraid Sanae doesn't quite feel the same way.
"Oh...oh, wh-what's going on? I never in a thousand years would've imagined that Reisen would be interested in...in..." Sanae is starting to appear lightheaded, not good for poor Orin who's already trying to hold you up from collapsing on the ground in a weeping heap.
"H-H-Hey, Sanae, come on, don't lose me now..." Sanae sits back on the bench that Orin quickly hopped out of and to your side when you were in middle of a funky panic attack.
"I...I'm sorry, I think I just need to sit down..." Orin sighs and looks at you worried.
"Hey, Reisen, are you alri-...d-don't give me that look."
You're putting on your biggest puppy dog eyes. You don't want to be left alooone. ; ;
A few minutes later, you went ahead and told Orin and Sanae the whole story. Including Youmu's recent development, though you felt that might be a bad idea. It's not really any of their business, but your story would've made more sense if you told them, so you couldn't just withhold the information.
"I see..." Sanae starts off with. "It's still surprising that you would feel this way, I feel like I'm talking to a different person..." You honestly feel kind of hurt by this, and feel the need to express it in some way, some subtle way to be sure.
"Is it really that surprising? It's not like I appear whorish, I mean...d-do I?" Orin shakes her head.
"No, not at all. You just seem like the kind of person would take a lot of relief in the protection and arms of a guy. Then again, if this is Youmu we're talking about, I guess it makes a lot of sense..." Sanae looks down, considering the situation.
"Yes, I thought the same way. Youmu isn't necessarily tomboyish, but she exhibits a lot of protective and masculine traits, particularly when she's concentrating on her kendo..."
The thought of a masculine Youmu is starting to actually kind of scare you, so you try to change the subject a bit.
"Well, Youmu has just comfortable me and always been there for me for so long, I just feel like I can't go without it now...but..." In middle of your painful silence, Orin stands up and takes change.
"Right. Sanae. Can you go check up on Youmu? If Rei's story is true, she could use some cheering up too." Uh oh, that doesn't sound good.
"A-Ah, no! P-Please don't tell Youmu I told you guys!" Sanae looks over at you and gives you a comforting smile.
"It's alright, I'll be sure to skirt the issue until she tells me. She tries to act strong but she never forgets who her allies are." Orin grins a confident smile.
"That's our Sanae for you! Go and show 'em what you're made of!" Sanae nods happily.
"Right!" After Sanae has left the roof though, Orin gives a big sigh. A sudden shift in mood takes place.
"Ahh...you know Rei, you and I...we have a lot more in common then I thought, eh?" She puts a hand on her hip, but looks away from you. You can see her expression to tell what exact way she means this in.
"Uhh...what do you mean?" Orin gives another sigh.
"Geez, Rei. I'd take Sanae as the more thick headed one. Normally you have a keen eye for things." As Orin walks towards one of the boundaries of the roof, clinging to the tall fence and looking out towards the city, you can't help but wonder what she means.
"I...I don't get it, Orin. What are you getting at?"
Things stay silent for a while. Orin eventually shifts her head down slowly.
"...you know. I always wanted to protect Sanae. For you it was probably love at first sight, yeah. But Sanae...she just kinda...you know, grew on me. Nothing special happened and yet...I dunno. I just realized one day that...Sanae...she..."
Your eyes widen suddenly, you realized what she's talking about at this point. Taking a step back, you can hardly believe your ears.
"O-Orin! You mean...you..."
"Yeah...it's stupid, ain't it? Me? With Sanae? I already know she's not interested in other girls, nor will she ever be...but I can't just act like nothing happened, I still kinda fell for her in my own little way. Maybe that's just the tomboy in me crying out to become a true man or something. Hah."
You feel rather...candid right now. This is a side to Orin you've never seen before. She sounds so depressed and down on herself. So serious and emotional. Yet, she's still trying to show that little part of herself that jokes around a bit, even in a situation like this. But, you're not yet sure if this really helps you yourself...
[ ] That's not true! I'm sure Sanae feels the same way about you!
[ ] Thanks, though I dunno if that makes me feel any better...
[ ] Ah...another one then...
[ ] We should get going, class is about to start